What does it mean to be alone? Loneliness is not just a state of isolation, but a feeling of isolation, regardless of whether that is complimented or confirmed by an accompanying physical state.
Though I didn't know it at the time, "To Be Alone" began in 2008 as a way for me to cope with a then-recent diagnosis of clinical depression and anxiety disorders while at the same time adjusting to life in a new city. Despite being surrounded by masses of people–friends, strangers, peers and colleagues–I felt lonelier than I ever had before.
When I started making these images I, for the first time in my life, truly understood what it meant to use a camera to make sense of the world around me, and I began documenting my own loneliness by projecting it onto found scenes, mixing images that uncomfortably isolate one subject in an urban landscape with images that are shot from the point of view of a solitary person in an unfamiliar or foreboding environment.
What was once an 8 picture series rooted in Washington, DC has, over the last several years, invaded my daily photography to the point that it has ballooned into a larger meditation on self-isolation and social disconnect. I have constructed an alternate version of my reality, imagining my camera as a lonely traveler on the periphery of human contact.
Projecting my insecurities out on the world around me helps me control them. To fantasize this alternate world where human contact is just out of reach, ever unattainable, reminds me that my own issues are as invented as the narrative I pin to the pictures.